Sunday, 31 May 2009

Weekend scribbles 4

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I noticed my stress gauge is shooting to the sky these days. I know you know why, so don't ask. 
Erm. Can i shout? is it ok? alright. Now cover your ears.

SHOOOOOT!!!! I'M TOTALLY SCREWED!

haha! thanks. I just don't know. I'm very nervous right now, it's unbelievable. I can see myself next year, sitting on the same old bed and stressing about exams, re-sits, college applications, job and where i want to be in the future. Will i be one of the losers? or am i going to be successful? 
My Biology exam is tomorrow and i'm not confident. The only exam i felt confident about is Mathematics since that's my strongest subject of all. Argh, i don't like this. I hate cramming!

Sorry guys. I think my posts are inclining towards the dark side. It's just the exams are getting to me and i'm cooped up in the house all the time because i'm so busy revising. Everything's making my head spin. Anyway, time to say goodbye.

Love you guys!
Sazzy
xXx

Saturday, 30 May 2009

A very VERY nervous person

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*hangs her head in defeat*
I didn't do any revision today. Yes, to answer your question. You have every right to scold me and i apologize for not doing any revision today. I'm sorry.

Yes, I know i'm being very dramatic. haha. But seriously, i didn't do any revision. I touched the book and read 2 pages which by the way, are now forgotten. I just don't know how i can cram a whole book tomorrow

Let's just wait and see what awaits me but I'm afraid my grades are at stake here, so i don't really want to mess this whole thing up. I shall try my best. *sigh* 

Erm. So today my dears, I attended an anticipated mass for pentecost and I read the second reading. Trust me, i was so nervous! My hands were the epitome of coldness, and when i went up the podium to read, i made whole lot of mistakes and had to read a word or two again. My hands and knees were trembling and if it was possible, my cold hands went up a notch (in terms of coldness). haha. 

I was also very pleased today because today was the finals of Britain Got Talent and OMG! Diversity won!!! yay! haha! Love them! I absolutely love them! The other acts were great and some are a bit shaky but they pulled through! haha. Hope they do well in the future!

Anymawhosis (got that from my amiga) i need to end this little scribble now because i feel terribly tired and i need my sleep. That's it for now, goodbye everyone! 
Hope you have a great week ahead of you and goodluck to us examinees!
May God give us knowledge and guide us in answering our exams. Amen. 

Daily Mail 3

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After looking through my blog an epiphany came to me. I haven't done Daily Mail yet! :O
I know! It's shocking isn't it? hehe! Here comes a train of people shouting "You're overreacting! silly!" LOL.

Here goes--> Thing's Sazzy's been doing for the days she has and hasn't blogged:

1. REVISION - yes, i know what you're thinking. It's probably on the line of "Has she got a life?" but unfortunately for you, i won't answer that question. You shouldn't either. If you do answer it. I don't want to hear it. I'm tired of revising and honestly, i don't know if i can finish revising on time for my exams. *sigh* Please just pray for me and all the others taking exams.... 

2. Blogging - wooot! I love blogging! haha! Sort of relieves my stress. I love you all! *hugs and kisses* LOL

3. Reading - Hold your horses guys! haha! i'm as surprised as you. I didn't know i had the time to read and immerse myself to a world without exams and just enjoy. (they're all romance stories as well. haha)

4. Cleaning - Hey! i can see your jaw dropping! stop it! LOL! You might not believe it, but i do clean once in a while and keep my room tidy every now and then. I'm not as lazy as you would like to imagine. :P

5. Writing - yesh! haha! although my time are mostly used by my revision i did manage to write two chapters of MA and they're up in FP so read it! ('Why don't you post the link then', you ask? well, there is a reason why but i won't tell you. Just go to Fictionpress.com and search Marriage Arrangement if you want to read it.) 

6. Falling in love - Ok, now you're exaggerating. haha. But i think i am in love. The catch is, it's with a person whom i'll never meet and if ever we do then i'm just super lucky. haha. Want to know why? Simple. Because he's Kim Hyun Joong. Doesn't ring a bell? Hint: he was in the Korean Drama Boys over flowers and he was also in We got married and was partnered with Hwang Bo and he's also the leader of the boy band SS501. Still don't know him? Try google! :P 

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To fear love is to fear life.
-Bertrand Russell

Friday, 29 May 2009

A very nervous person

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Hello people! I have some time to spare so i decided to post a blog. Well, you know, i'm not supposed to have any spare time but shh! i'm procrastinating. *wink*

Anyway, I'm sure this post will turn out to be one of my rants again about exams and all those things. Damn! i hate revising! 

Ok! OK! it's my fault for not organizing my time and all those things. Sorry! >_<

*sigh* I've got exams next week and i haven't done any revisions... except a bit of biology... i did some yesterday. Argh! why did i took the hard subjects. T_T
I want to kill myself now. haha! i'm kidding! *peace*

I'll end this now before i say something unpleasant. 

Love you guys!

Sazzy
xXx

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

A Procrastinating idiot

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I hope you're used to my bantering now, my dear friend. I am, afterall, but a sad woman looking for humour to ease her boredom away. haha.
Geez. I didn't even mean what i said back then. It was meant to be a joke, but i guess you didn't catch on to that. I'm sorry. 

Uh, so anyway, that was what i want to tell him but seeing as he doesn't read my blog, it doesn't really matter. Damn. Now i'm being ignored. Talk about a guy having pms every freaking time. 

So, hello again my beloved readers! I'm here again. Yes, i know you missed me. haha! joke. Anyway, i'm supposed to be studying (note: a big emphasis on supposed to be), seeing as i have an exam on monday about biology and chemistry on the same week. Blame my greatest enemy, procrastination for that. I decided, i'll start maybe later tonight? *grin*

I'm reading yet again, another 'romance' story. Geez, someone tell me to get a life. haha! 
Anywho's, i'm signing off! 
Bye everyone!
have a lovely week!
see you next time!

Sazzy,
xXx

Monday, 25 May 2009

The Blabbermouth

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Erm... you know i have been thinking about things. 
When did you not think about things?
urgh. I don't know! Shut up!
So, let's not act like a crazy woman shall we? *ahem* 

Okay people, please do not think of me as some nutcase. I am completely sane and stable, just to let you know. Alright, well maybe i act like a looney sometimes but i'm totally harmless. haha. 
And so, get ready for a long post, for i am to tell you my whole life. *insert a me trying not to laugh* 
ha! i'm kidding! Of course i am [kidding].
I can probably tell you my life story before you even finish saying 'supercalifragilisticexpialidocious'. That's right, it's that mundane and uneventful. But since, I'm in the mood of writing, i shall tell you a story back when i was still in elementary. Don't blame me if it sounds childish but i was a kid back then! [*click the read more link (^_~)]
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I changed school back when i was in grade 3. From a campus with 4 different departments, each said department having their own building, a separate admin building, a humongous canteen and gymnasium, green field, it's own church (yes, it's a catholic school) and my heaven, a two-storey library; to a small school with only half a building (the other half being commercially occupied by a salon and a computer shop) and only an average of 15 student per grade. Not that i'm complaining, back then i didn't really care if i changed school and not see my best friends. I mean, i was sad that i may never see or hear from them again (cell phones were not really that popular back in those days) but hey! i was a kid back then.

I started to know my classmates and had no problem fitting in, or so i think. My memory is not that great. We were all in the same boat, after all, the school is new and everyone basically came from god knows what school. Our class (or our whole grade for that matter) is composed of 4 girls (including me) and 9 boys (my fleeting crush included. And of course, another special person whom i like till now. haha! die from guessing! i won't ever confess! Besides, he probably don't feel the same way i do - and that my friend, is what you call unrequited love (not that i love him)). 

Uh, moving on.

I think it was when i was in grade 5 when this happened, and i have to make this clear: it was not my intent that things ended up like that. Well, evidently, it was my fault for telling the parentals about it, but how could i have known that the poor kid would end up that way just because of a little call? and how could i have guessed their reaction when i told them about what had happen? (Talk about overprotectiveness. That was why after that incident, i learnt to shut my mouth)
You might think what a bitch i am for doing that, but back then i didn't really know what would happen. I was a kid for crying out loud! and kids naturally have loose mouths. 

It was an ordinary day and well, i was sort of touchy (haha! mood swings). My teacher left after her class had finished and we were left copying the notes she wrote on the board. I was on the front row and the boy was at my back. Well, i was not as tall as i am now back then. I was rather small, in fact, i was the smallest in the group and well... he was second smallest. If i were to describe him, he's small (duh) and have the look of a bully and true enough, he was somewhat of a bully, but not all the time. I mean we were friends, everyone was, me and my classmates are close but i was not as close to him like i was with the girls and my bestfriends, nevertheless we are friends. 

He told me to move because he couldn't see the writings on the board (or couldn't he really?), i didn't move (told you i was in a touchy mood). He could've either move and go to the front or tilt his little head aside and see past me, but unfortunately the kid didn't have the brain to even think of that. Instead, he slapped me hard on the back of my head causing me to let out a painful 'ouch' and cry. (ah! children... tsk tsk tsk) My memory is a bit hazy of what happened after that. 

I came home and the parentals, doing the normal thing when their children come home after school, asked what happened while i was in school. Me, being the innocent child i was, told them my uneventful day, including the slapping incident. I remembered my mom/dad (which one? anyway, one of them probably both of them) was angry and asked me what the number of the poor boy's house. Well, i didn't know, but we had those class directory so they found it, eventually. 

They called the boy's house and talked to his parents. (i feel bad now... damn.) 

The next day, i saw him with a cut on his face (just a small one) and his guy friends, which by the way is also my friend, told me that he was hit by his dad that night and things just kind of escalated. My adviser summoned me to the faculty room and scolded me for telling my parents about it. She told me all this crap, saying, i shouldn't have told them about such a small thing that could've been settled in school. Thinking about it now, how can she scold me for something like that? (Okay, i agree, maybe i shouldn't have told my parents about it, but argh!) 

The next thing i now, the poor kid was not attending school any more and transferred back to his old school. I never saw him again after that and i never knew what's the actual reason why he transferred schools either.

So, I won't blame you if you think i was such a bitch when i was a child. Heck! i think i was as well but see, if the boy just used his brain a little and not do that, well this would never had happened anyway. Thus, i blame him. ha!

I hope he won't ever read this post or i'm screwed. haha!
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Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.
-Margaret Peters

Sunday, 24 May 2009

Weekend Scribbles 3

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ok, this is supposed to be a long post but since i haven't done weekend scribble yet i'll just do a quick one and who knows? i might do a seperate and longer post for what actually happened today.

Today was totally fun and tiring. My morning started badly, what with parents nagging you to eat breakfast and sister joining in, who wouldn't feel annoyed? 
That's not the point. I went with my friends to watch the airshow and we paddled at the beach, ate some snack and strolled back and forth down the seafront. I even rode the red arrows simulation! haha. That was certainly a rough ride to the sky. 
Anyway, i'm now reading 'They call it a cliche' by angels and effects, cue the way i write right now. haha. And, i'll probably be busy again for this week and the week after with revision and exams. 

As always! i'll try to find some time to blog and give you guys the latest happenings in my life (not that you would want to know but who cares, you love me nonetheless *insert puppy eyes here*)

I shall bid you farewell now my beloved readers, do take care and God bless. :)

Saturday, 23 May 2009

Of exams, airshows and sisters

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Should this be a weekend scribble? Nah. This shan't be one, because this will be a looong post. haha.

I went to my dashboard and clicked a new post 1 hour ago and guess what? For one hour, all i did was type that first question and read other things. Naturally, i forgot what i had to say. Call me stupid or what, but hey it does happen. lol. We just have to think as we go, and go with the flow right? *insert evil grin here*

First up, exams. Please, can you not say that word or anything related to it for just this weekend?
haha. I know right? if only i could forget about my upcoming exams and just live on a fluffy world with rainbows and unicorns flying about, and an endless supplies of manga, food, candies, chocolate and all of my favourite things on my side. Everything would be good, right?
hehe. I'm kidding. Although, I would really like that to happen (well, maybe without all the fluffiness) but, my dear, reality is harsh. That we must never forget.
The only positive thing about this, is that i'm done with 5 of my exams so i only have 5 more to go. woot! go me!
With that, I decided that my poor brain need some time to relax, so i concluded that no revisions are to be done this weekend! yay! hehe! play time! :D

umm... is it just me or was it really noisy yesterday? why, you ask?
Yesterday, there were a lot of planes (i assume) hovering around. haha. yea, it's a normal thing here you know, airplanes passing by your house, it happens everyday... not. I guess it was because they were practicing for the airshow tomorrow and monday. Ah! wait! it's not actually a 'guess' the airshow is tomorrow and on monday! haha! So, if you're free tomorrow or on monday come and see the airshow! I recommend coming tomorrow, they say the weather will be good. Who knows, you might bump into me and my friends?

Moving on, I shall tell you what I did yesterday!
After finishing our math C2 exam, which by the way, was a little worrying for i forgot how to do logarithm and sequences, went down to the seafront and bought some ice cream from Rossi's. Afterwards, we went to the beach and played with the water (freezing water). I don't know what came to us, because it was actually cold yesterday. I think it's the effect of the exam, see? exams aren't good for you! haha!
We then walked to town and wandered around the shops (namely, H&M, primark and Debenhams). Unfortunately, i had to go at around 1:15 pm, because i told my mom i'll be home at 1.00. Thankfully, i didn't get any scolding or anything (not that my mom will get angry just because i was late by merely 30 minutes) and in fact, i was treated to some good stuff. I love my mom! haha!

Last night, i was reading some stories in Fictionpress, because i missed doing so. And i've also written a new chapter for MA. At around 12.30, my sister came down from her bed above me and lied down beside me. Of course, i was still up. I asked her why, and she told me, 'malamig dito eh... ang init sa 'taas, hindi ako makatulog' (it's cool down here, I can't sleep up there, it's hot.) and because i'm kind (hoho!) i didn't mind. After that i stayed up for another hour to finish the story i'm reading and... omg! i can hear nodame cantabile in the sala!!!

lol! anyway, i think that's long enough. i'm off to watch nodame. *waves*

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Dignity comes not from control, but from knowing who you are and taking your rightful place in the world.
-Real Live Preacher

Friday, 22 May 2009

Colorgenics

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Name: Suzana
Date: 5/22/2009
Colorgenics Number: 14320765


You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

Thursday, 21 May 2009

Daily Mail 2

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Things Sazzy's been doing for the past few days: 

1. REVISION - it's in bold because i'm tired of it! haha. One more to go this week! 

2. Sitting in an examination room. - i know you know how it is like to sit in one of those, doing your exam for who knows how long, so i won't say much about it.

3. Reading manga - from all the time i'm revising i really can't believe i had time to read.

4. Blogging.

Nothing much happen to me this week because almost all of my time is used for revisions and answering past paper questions. I now have finished sitting Module 1 for Math (really good, hopefully got at least a B), Physics (i'm happy if i even got a C or a B) and Citizenship (failed. prolly a U).

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Shivers and a wierd feeling

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hi everyone! hehe!

This is one of those post when i'm still up at ridiculous times. haha. Shall i tell you what i am like right now?
hmmm... do you want to know? 

Ok. Currently, I am shivering. Yes, you heard it right. I'm shivering and it's not even cold. (>_<) My heart is beating really fast that i could even feel it's thumping. hehe. I feel really weird.

Have you ever felt like this before? 
hmmm... imagine it's your birthday and you're special someone is supposed to come after not seeing each other for a very long time, you're very excited and at the same time very nervous and worried. 
Is he/she really coming? 
What if he/she was involved in an accident?
What if something happened to him/her?
he/she still like me right?
What will i say to him/her? Do i look alright?

There you go. That's what i'm feeling right now. I don't really know why, maybe because of my exam today? who knows... 
I only have one request to everyone though, please wish me luck and include me in your prayers. 

Thanks. :)

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

Some things are better kept unknown

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Sazzy's mood: 
Apathetic
Sazzy's listening to: 
The sound of the cars outside her window

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Ugh! I feel really sick... :/
On top of that, I've seen something i shouldn't have. You can definitely blame my curiosity for that.
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I honestly, feel like vomiting right now.

This is not good. Not in the least. I have to concentrate right now in my revisions. 
Please, wish me luck everyone. 

Sunday, 17 May 2009

The Human Footprints

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I was looking through my old stuff, trying to find a barely used notebook to give to my mom and found my general studies notebook. I read through some of the papers tucked in it and found this interesting worksheet titled "Our Planet: The Human Footprint".
Here is what it says:

In our lifetime we might do the following:

Eat
  • 875 tins of beans
  • 4 283 loaves of bread
  • 13 345 fresh eggs
  • 10 000 bars of chocolate (yum yum!)
  • Four whole cattle
  • 21 sheep (eeek!)
  • 15 pigs
  • 1 200 chickens
  • 2 372 kg of potatoes
  • 10 866 carrots
Drink
  • 15 913 pints of milk
  • 74 802 cups of tea
Will have
  • Used up 8.5 tonnes of packaging
  • 3 800 disposable diapers
  • 4 239 toilet rolls
  • Vomit up 149 litres of food
  • Read 533 books
  • Spend 8 years sitting on our sofa
  • 7,163 baths, using one million litres of water
  • use 657 bars of soap
  • 197 bottles of shampoo
  • 270 deodorants
  • 274 tubes of toothpaste
  • 78 tooth brushes
  • cried 121 pints
Interesting right? Of course, this does not apply to all people because this factsheet was based on a British Documentary called The Human Footprints on Channel 4 a while back. There is, however, a site for it that i found while searching the Human Footprint: the National Geographic website.
Check it out! I recommend the consumption interactive.

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Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep.
-Scott Adams

Saturday, 16 May 2009

Fortunate Contract: Chapter 2

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Sazzy's mood
Sleepy
Sazzy's listening to: 
All Good Things by Nelly Furtado
Message: 
Hi everyone! here's chapter 2 for my Blog Story: Fortunate Contract. It has been a while and I do apologize. No promises made for regular updates though, so you have to check my blog out when you have time :)
Enjoy Reading!
Summary: 
We go back to the past to see how Serena and Jerick decided to sign a marriage contract. Just how did it all started?
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6 months ago

“Serry!” Brian said in her sing-song voice. “Package for you!”

Is it from home? Serena wondered, “Thanks! Be there in a minute!”

Brian was one of Serena’s closest friend in college they share an apartment together and they are both medical students in Harvard.

“So,” Brian chimed as Serena tear open the parcel. “Who’s it from?”

Serena smiled when she saw the scribbles of her mom, “Home.” She said, simply.

“Oooh!” Brian said as she flopped on the sofa and flipped the TV on. “Are they your mom’s homemade jam? I love those!”

Serena chuckled at Brian’s enthusiasm as she took the things out of the parcel. “Oh! Here’s the jam Bri!” she said as she jingled the jar to Brian. Brian squealed and snatched it from Serena’s hand, she then went to the kitchen. A second later, Serena heard the cutleries clattering. “You alright over there?” she asked looking at Brian as she grabbed a knife from the drawer.

“uh-huh! Do you want one?”

Serena stifled a laugh and said, “I’m good. Thanks”

She reached in and grabbed a file out of the parcel and accidentally dropped a letter tucked within it, What’s this? She thought as she bent down and read it to herself.

Dear Serena,

Enjoy!

Love,

Your Mom and Dad

Enjoy? Was Serena’s question to herself, she took the file from the counter looking confused and went to sit at the couch. It was full of bachelor’s profile with meeting dates.

“Is this a joke?” she muttered as she flipped through the pages. “what the hell are they thinking?” she said laughing to herself. Her parents must have gone insane, she was still in university and she doesn’t have time for blind dates. More so if there’s a marriage prospect in every one of them.

“What’s wrong?” Brian asked worriedly.

Serena passed the file to her unable to stop laughing. Brian took it and flipped the pages. It was entitled “Marriage Prospectus”. All the bachelors she saw where famous, rich and powerful young men. “Whoa! Did you sign up for this?” She asked as she stared at the pictures of these handsome young men, “you should totally give me the name of this dating compa- oh my god! It’s Ryan Stuart!”

Serena doubled over from her friend’s reaction, the whole thing is totally absurd and aside from her studies she had her part-time job so her schedule’s totally packed.

“you have a date with Ryan Stuart and Patrick Reynold! Is this thing real?” Brian said shocked.

“Bri...” was all Serena could manage from her fit of laughter. She was down on the floor holding her stomach.

“What are you doing over there?” Brian asked, staring at Serena like she had gone insane.

Serena stood up, trying to compose herself and said, “It’s real but I’m not going.”

“Are you out of your mind!? That’s Ryan Stuart and Patrick Reynold! All their fans would kill for this date you know!”

Serena stopped herself from having another laugh and settled with a chuckle “No, I’m not.” She said as she took the file out of Brian’s hand “I’m sure they’ll be glad that they don’t have to waste their time chatting with a girl like me. We both have better things to do with our time than to sit in a fancy restaurant talking.” She said, disappearing in her room.

Brian stood there dumbfounded at her friend’s reaction. Now that she thought about it, can a dating company really get a hold of all those influential people?

That very night, Serena tried to call her mom and dad but they won’t answer any of her calls. She tried calling her mom’s secretary but can always seem to reach her voicemail. After all the failed attempt of contacting her parents she tried calling her house.

“Rainey Household, Good Evening, how may I help you?” A man’s voice answered.

“Hello? Albert? It’s me. Is my mom and dad there?”

“I’m very sorry miss. They went away for a business trip to Japan this morning.”

Serena bit her lip. Her parents were cunning that she must admit. “When will they be back?”

“I’m afraid I do not know miss.”

“I see, Thanks. By the way, how are Trish and Ed?”

“They are doing well. Miss Trish was entered for her first figure skating competition. Young master Ed has gotten better with his violin and both of them are doing well at school. Would you like to talk to them?”

“No, it’s ok. It’s pretty late so they might be resting already, just tell them I said hi. Anyway, I’ve got to go, thanks Albert. Bye.”

She dropped her phone at her side and lay on her bed, staring at the red file on her hand “no choice, huh?”

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Fortunate Contract: Chapter 1 - Deal

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Just a little note: Ryan Stuart and Patrick Reynold are fictional characters and they're like one of those super famous people. Just to give you an idea, they could be compared to Robert Pattinson, Orlando Bloom or Brad Pitt. Got it? This explains Brian's reaction and all the fans thing. (^.~)v

Weekend Scribbles 2

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ANNOUNCEMENT:
Yes, people! I decided that I'll make Weekend Scribble a regular thing. 
I'll also try to make a sort of an icon for it or something to be place everytime i do it. 
Won't that be cool? it will won't it? 
So, if you've got any ideas tell me 
OR if you're one of those really REALLY wonderful person and make me one i'll be really grateful!
(I'm also working on a banner for WP so look forward to it! It might take a while though because of exams.)

My exams are just a few days from now and guess what? I'm not prepared. 
haha! I know, I know, i should revise right? 
And, you're probably thinking, "...and she was aiming for an A (¬_¬)"
But don't worry, it's not too late I am revising (bit by bit). I'm gonna get there.
Have faith in me people! I will! I can do this!
Of course, if all else fails, i can always resit. 

To my fellow examinees, we can do this! 
Good luck to every one of us!
May God Bless us all and give us wisdom for our exams. 
Amen. 

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Out of life's school of war: What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.
-Friederich Nietzsche

Thursday, 14 May 2009

Panic, Sir? Can you please go away?

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I'm really behind on my revisions. 
I have an exam on Math this Wednesday,
Physics and Citizenship on Thursday 
and Maths again for Friday.
*panic* *panic* *panic*

Oh my! what do you do when your exam's coming up? Any advice?

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

Sazzy's Insomnia Part II (Sleeping Tips)

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Here are some tips i've found and what worked for me:

1. Binaural beats - it didn't help me. But i think it does because i've heard an Alpha Binaural beat in youtube and it made me dizzy and sleepy. Having said that, my mind is just too stubborn to fall for it and actually trying to sleep with earphones on, is just uncomfortable. It might not work for me but it might for you, so if you want to try it click here.
Or try searching youtube.

2. Lavanders and all that jazz - It is helpful (in one way or another) because it sets the mood. Scents help for relaxation which could be one step towards sleep. I keep a lavander soap under my pillow, it smells really nice :P

3. Keep it dark and quiet - Trust me it helps! But if you prefer having music in the background to help you relax then do so. ANYTHING that helps you RELAX is GOOD!

4. Wear comfortable clothing - don't wear your work/study clothes when sleeping, it will only make you think of work/school. Always wear something comfortable to sleep it makes you feel at home.

5. Don't do your work on your bed - your bed is for you to sleep on, not for you to work on. But if it can't be helped, try re-arranging your bed differently when you're working and when you're sleeping this way your brain will think "ah! that's for sleeping!" and "ah! that's for work!".

6. It's all about the mind - Yes! it is all about the mind. Give yourself some time to relax before you sleep. If you usually sleep at 11, why not stop working at 10:30 and relax your mind. Do something different that could help ease your mind. Meditate. Don't think too much. Imagine your "happy place".

7. MILK - ah! the ever so powerful milk! Milk's one of the best thing in the world if you have insomnia. It contains some chemicals that make you sleepy (i won't go into details with the chemicals and stuff but it is scientifically proven) (^.~)v

8. Exercise, excercise, excercise - i find that after excercising for 30 mins for two-straight days i slept better. It doesn't have to be everyday twice a week of excercise is fine as well and it doesn't have to a straight 30 minutes excercise, you could break it up into 5 mins or whatever suit you. Do some brisk walking or cycling or jogging in the morning or in the afternoon. Remember don't do excercise right before you go to bed, do it 4 - 5 hours before you go to bed.

9. Oh dear vegetables and fruit! You make me feel good! - hehe! it's not just veggies and frutties, eating a healthy meal and of course eating properly everyday helps you to sleep. Having an empty stomach could cause you worry when you go to bed. So what to do fellow insomaniacs and sleep lovers? Make sure that your stomach has something before you sleep and as always don't eat right before you go to bed. It's uncomfy.

10. "My body clock doesn't work that way" - everyone of us have a body clock and it can be messed up just like how i messed it up by napping at late afternoons. Try not to take a nap after 3 pm and set a time for sleep and waking up. Nowadays, i try to sleep in between 10 and 11 and wake up at 7:45. I found out that my body likes routines, so what do you know? Setting a routine for yourself might help you as well. :)

11. Keep the distractions out of your sight - not much to be said, distractions CAN and WILL distract you from sleeping. KEEP THEM SOMEWHERE SAFE FROM YOUR EYES. :P

12. Lastly, Pray. As they say prayer is the most powerful medicine. I find it to be very true. My insomnia or my inability to sleep helped me find my way back to God. When my sleeping problem started, I went quickly on the internet and searched for cure and consulted others for help but once i started asking God for help and prayed to him. Without knowing, i can sleep properly again. This just shows that once you reach out to him, he'll help you. So pray and keep it up. Don't be afraid because he'll help you, just believe and have faith in him. (Personally, i found praying the rosary as well as a normal prayer helps.)

I learned that having not enough sleep for over a week is bad. Real BAD and i learnt it the hard way. What more if you have chronic or acute insomnia where you experience it for more than a week?

Well, i could only imagine. But if you are in america i heard that there's this clinic in Chicago that deals with sleeping disorders and i heard they're really good so you might want to have a look if that is true and search it on the net. 
I hope this helps you get a better sleep! 
There's no harm in trying them because you won't lose anything but more so, you'll learn something. Try it for your self and see if it helps.

Happy sleeping guys!

xxx

P.S I found a helpful article full of tips to get a better sleep here's the link: click here!

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Sleep is the golden chain that ties health and our  bodies together
- Thomas Dekker

Sazzy's Insomnia Part I

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So here it is my fellow insomaniacs! This is my insomnia experience. (This makes me think of the song Insomia by Craig David and i have a feeling the title looks a bit funny. lol.)

It all started on that faithful day, the 5th of May... Ok, i'll talk normally. :P
Well, I was doing my normal routine that day, go to school, eat, open my laptop, read and so on... anyway, that day, i was reading some manga as usual and came across Cat Street, which is under the psychological genre. I didn't know that it will actually affect me, because i've read a lot of psychological manga out there, but it never affected me to the point that i can't sleep for a few days. That night i lay on my bed, eyes closed. It almost looked like I was sleeping but my mind, was running a thousand miles per hour

I've been thinking of the manga i've read and almost anything and everything. I tossed and turned, sit up and drank some hot chocolate (i even woke up my dad in the process - i didn't mean to, i promise. I was trying to be silent as much as possible) but i could not sleep at all. At 5 am, I gave up sleeping and just allowed my mind to go wherever it wants. The next day, i felt awful and tired but i have school and i needed to go.

My sleeping problem continued till the next day but i got atleast 4 hours of sleep unknowingly. I thought i would be fine the next day but i wasn't. I wasn't able to sleep again and it continued till Monday of the next week. By that time, i was feeling really tired, unfocused and dizzy. I barely got through the day, although, i don't think anyone noticed that, i finally called my GP and booked an appointment for today. She said she couldn't help me with my sleeping problems but i should come back if it continued for another 3 WEEKS! o(>_<)o

* on insomia Part II you'll find tips on sleeping better and the ones that worked for me


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To achieve the impossible dream, go to sleep.
- Joan Klempner

Daily Mail

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Thing's Sazzy's been doing for the past days she hasn't blogged:

1. TRYING TO SLEEP!
- i found that not touching and opening my laptop help me focus on my work and sleep. I've been doing it for 2 days and thankfully i am sleeping peacefully at night.

2. Insomnia Research
- Is it weird to want to know about your own sickness? haha. I think not. Anyway, i've found loads of stuff about Insomia.
Trivia: Did you know that there are 3 types of insomnia?
Transient insomnia (lasts for days or weeks), Acute insomnia (three weeks to six months) and Chronic Insomnia (last for years)

I had Transient Insomia. (i'm going to do a separate post for helping my fellow insomaniac with their insomia since mine's pretty much cured *knocks quickly on the wood :P*)

3. REVISING!
- Can you believe i'm actually revising? haha! Well, any normal student will revise for their finals specially if it's only a few days from now. Although i do wonder, when i was young i never reviewed for a subject this early... I usually review a day before my exam lol! Don't ever do that unless you are confident with your subject or if it's really easy because you will be crushed by the pressure unless, if you are one of those people like me who works better when they are pressured. But! i've learned and found out that always being under pressure is not always good.

4. Staying Fit
- yes, the lazy Saz is excercising!
Since, we had our wii replaced, i started playing the wii fit. My aim was to excercise at least 30 mins per day or 2 hours per week. Another reason I started excercising was because it is said that it helps with insomnia and I think it actually DOES!

5. Checking out Medical School
- Being a doctor was my childhood dream - no, actually i also wanted to be a lawyer when i was young. Anyway, i've been checking out prospectuses from different medical schools and their entry requirements. I know it's going to be a hard competition because there are a lot of people who wants to be a doctor and i'm not backing down! :P

6. Aiming for A's
- nothing much to say. As they say, when you aim, aim high! And so, I'm trying to aim for A's in my exams although, it will need a lot of effort in my part. Wish me luck guys! (^.^)v

7. Going back to him.
- well, who is him? you said? HIM is GOD. :) *more on this on my next post about insomnia

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Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach a man to fish and he will eat for a lifetime. Teach a man to create an artificial shortage and he will eat meat.
- Jay Leno

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Weekend Scribble

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I was bored just now and that came to my mind. I look like a living dead. Yes, I look like a zombie right now but don't worry, i'll return to my human form when the sun comes up. haha!
Anyway, this is meant to be a scribble so it should be short. 
My exams are a week from now this tuesday and i should not freak out! hehe! 
I'm starting my revision this week but i'll try to find some time to blog as well ^^

P.S HAPPY HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SIS!!!! (belated, her birthday was yesterday :P)
Love lots! Best of luck for whatever you do!
God Bless you always!
Mwuah!

P.S.S Happy birthday to everyone celebrating theirs yesterday or today as well :)
Keep it up guys! Wishing you all the best things in life! 
Keep on rocking the world out! ^.~

Thursday, 7 May 2009

Tomorrow will come

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Everything's a bit dim right now but i think i'll be alright.
I had problems with my sleep and i think it's due to some things i've read
It was a bit disturbing but thankfully, i got over it.
Everything should go back to normal for the next few days.
Hopefully.
I'm really thankful to God for hearing my prayers and watching me always. :)
God Bless you all ^^

(My longest record of staying awake was 44 hours :P)

Monday, 4 May 2009

A knight, a Queen and a Priest

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I had a dream that I went to a kingdom and became a Queen. The time setting was during the medieval era. I didn't come alone, i had a knight but for some reason the said knight's face was obscured and may i add 'always' obscured. 

The dream started out with me meeting the King of the Kingdom. He wore his full armor and told me that he is passing the throne to me. I think i was confused then and asked him why, he told me that it was a tradition. Everytime a war is coming the present King/Queen is to set out and assign a substitute to manage the kingdom in case of any unfortunate event. And so, I was enthroned as a substitute. The king never came back (i had no idea where he went) and the scene changed to me seating in the throne room. 

My knight came and announced that the neighbouring kingdom is planning to attack us soon. At that time, i think i saw one of our bases located at the outskirt of my kingdom. I passed a decree to my people and recruited men from all over to train as soldiers. I ordered all blacksmith to prepare shields and weapons and told the common people to not worry. Alas, it was time and i head out to the battlefield together with my knight. One thing i forgot to do, which i noticed now was that in my dream i didn't assign a substitute King/Queen. 

The scene changed to after the war and i was again sitting in the throne room, my knight is nowhere in sight and my adviser/confidante is (for some reason) seating next to me. Many people gathered and the old king came. He called my name but another person stood up (she's one of my acquantance in real life but i won't say her real name instead, i'll give her a false name) Leika. The former King acknowledged her and gave her something. I heard cheers and applauses in the background. I was confused for i was still the Queen (or so it thought). I asked my confidante "Am I still the Queen?" 
I knew the tradition and my job was to keep the kingdom peaceful, if they had chosen a new one in my stead then i had no choice but to step down.
"Yes, your majesty." was all he said.
I very much needed an explanation as to what is happening. This gathering is not for our victory and not one of welcome but a different one. They were celebrating an unknown event for Leika. I sat there bewildered, gave nods and smiled. It was uncomfortable and i had no one to talk to. 

The next thing i knew, I was living in a small monastery. I am not sure what happened to my knight but instead of him i was living with a priest and another girl. A war is yet again imminent (again, the reason is unknown) and i think this part of my dream is a different story to the other one. I have a hunch this one is King Henry VIII's time when the Roman Catholic's are being pursued. 

Some unknown people came asking questions which i couldn't remember. Then they started searching the monastery. After they left, i went to some place in a forest and found the priest building a church. Later on, i was digging a hole and putting some improved metal blocks as foundation and looked back at him. The layout of the chairs were wrong. It was all lined up at the side of the church and a big open space was in the middle. We talked for a while and i told him he should've lined it up by rows. 
Then, my phone rang and I woke up. 

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Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.
- Epicurus

Sunday, 3 May 2009

I'm tired my friend. Can you take it from here?

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Ah! how i wish you could. Wouldn't that be nice? 
haha! I'm kidding.
Don't you think I'm whining too much these days without even doing anything worth it?
Yes, yes. Indeed. It's true isn't it?
Sheez! Saz get a grip! :P 

You know, i have been thinking (i'm thinking too much lately...) i have less than a month till my exams. Is that good? It's not isn't it. haha

Of all my major subjects, i'm most worried about Biology. I don't actually love/like Biology that much and much to my embarrassment, it is the only subject i got a line of 7 when i was still in Munsci. hays... those days... I remember the whole class failing that subject during the 4th grading. Well, thanks to BioMan, we didn't really fail. Miracurously enough, i got about 81 or something in the end. Another subject of concern is Citizenship. It is supposed to be a subject you could get a way with: not revising and still have a passing grade in the end, but unfortunately for me, i am not an essay person who can make 8 essays within an hour and 30 minutes. To simply put it, i can't waffle on about all this being-a-citizen questions. You can tell i don't like essays, can't you?
Well a big CONGRATULATIONS for figuring that out! 
hehe! i'm fooling around. :P

Oh well, i guess it's time to finally draw the line between WORK and PLAY. 
And i'll get to the business tomorrow :)

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I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.
-Bill Cosby