Tuesday, 30 June 2009

My self-inflicted punishment.

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I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Would you believe me if I say i typed all that sorries out without copying and pasting them?
You probably wouldn't but I did.
I'm sorry I did it. I really am.
I'll try not to do it again so please forgive me. please.

Sunday, 28 June 2009

Weekend Scribbles 8

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Quick! We have to make a scribble before the clock strikes twelve or it won't be a weekend scribble anymore! :O

Ok! Hey everyone! I've had loads of fun today! We went to the Filipino Family Day somewhere near us and I played all sorts of things. A little bit of basketball, darts, billiards, chess, bouncing in the bouncy castle, playing at the big playground and lots and lots of volleyball! (Hence, my arms are hurting right now.)

So, I can't really type properly without my arms aching so I'll stop now.

Tata!
Sazzy

Saturday, 27 June 2009

She's sribbling away.

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Yep. I'm posting a lot of scribbles... I wonder why?

I'm feeling a lot better now and I didn't go jogging this morning because I didn't feel really good and I don't want to pass out on the pavement in the middle of it. (That'd be really bad... and kakowarui >_<)

We have a filipino mass today later on in the evening and well, I should stop myself from going to FP for a while.

Friday, 26 June 2009

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Now... I don't like it when my body just suddenly felt like it wanted to vomit....
I don't like it one bit! In fact i think i don't like it at all!

(i just said that...)
(urgh, told you i can't think well....)

bye. again.

I don't feel well~

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*sigh* wish this would just go away... I don't like it.
I wonder what is it that make me this nervous...
I feel quesy and funny and my tummy's also feeling funny...
I can't think...

bye.

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Daily Mail 4

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We have a lot of time to catch up people! It's been over 3 weeks since I last did Daily Mail so expect a pretty long list. :)

What Sazzy's been doing for the past 3 weeks she didn't do the Daily Mail:

1. Revision. It is still at the top. For the first 2 weeks i didn't do Daily Mail I was busy revising for Chemistry, Biololgy and Mechanics. Thankfully, all of them is over now and I've now got a lot of free time in my hands - ok, maybe not a lot, but I have more free time now than when I have my exams. LOL

2. Writing. I've been doing a lot of these for the past 2 weeks. To prove that my newest story is already up in FP and it's called The YouTuber. The story came to me while browsing my friend and my fellow blogger's page. (Yes, Eileen it's you :P) She posted a link of a video by ebgarcia3 and that's where the idea came from.

3. Exercising. yay! haha! It's not that rare that I'm exercising so I won't say much about it. It seems that me and my friends established a Saturday morning jogging routine. So expect me to wake up before 8 am every Saturday and jog at the seafront.

4. Reading. I've been reading a lot. haha. I know you know that, anyway, it's not a new news. I think for the past 3 weeks I haven't done Daily Mail I've read about 5 multi-chapters in FP and I've finished reading a novel. (Bookworm alert!)

5. Organizing her learning. Let's just say, I've finally learned my lesson after 17 years or so. I don't want to be in the position where I'm always feeling in the dark. Not knowing what I'm doing and feeling lost whenever it's time to be tested. I want to be in control of my learning and not be controlled by it. In the end, I want to walk in the exam room and feel confident that I'm going to get the grades I want. Maybe you should do it too, because it's hard when you're always under the water.

6. Jotting notes. Errr.... I have been jotting down notes from different books about the topics for Biology but that's about it. Isn't this under number 5?

7. Playing Travian, Online FB games, plurking and blogging. Whoa! that's a lot in one go. haha. They are my online obsession nowadays. Don't worry though, I'm balancing my learning and my play time so I'm good.

8. Arts Award. For once! I've actually done some work towards my Arts Award. Be proud of me! haha.

9. Being the Family Computer Tech. As always. LOL. I'm a little bit able to fix our family PC. haha. Ok, well, maybe not just a little bit. I'm not new to fixing our family computer because I'm always the one to fix it whenever a driver crashed, there's an error or whenever it caught a virus. I learnt from my mistake that I shouldn't use the family PC for useless things (e.g. reading manga or anything unimportant) because I'll be the one they'll blame why things happen to it. So, I'm always using my laptop.

10. Extra Curriculars and Hanging out. Lately, I'm not just busy because of my studies but because I'm involved in some stuff outside of school as well and I'm having fun. I've also been hanging out a lot with my friends. My parents were commenting about it the other day asking me why i'm always going out and such. So I'm thinking, I'll try to lay low for the next few weeks.

11. Looking over University Prospectuses. This is the last one promise! LOL. I'm still looking for that course that'll suit me. Yes, I do want to enter medicine but let's be realistic here. What's the probability that I can attend one? There are thousands of students aiming for the same goal all over UK and it's better to have backup courses available to me than to wait anxiously if I passed or not.

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Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss when you're going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
- Eddie Cantor

Saturday, 20 June 2009

Weekend Scribbles 7

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This is my 50th post! :D

Well, I'd just like to thank my friends for their cunning ways of voting me for the Jack Petchey without me knowing. I did suspect something was up but I didn't know what it is. lol. So a big big Thank you guys! :)

P.S. I won the award together with another student :)

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

Windows - No Disk error

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Sazzy's mood:
Bad.
Sazzy's listening to:
The sims 3 bg music and the TV's noise from the sala
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I'm going to be honest. I am in a totally bad mood. I was happy a few hours ago but that was the past and this is the present.

I have been trying to resolve a problem with the family computer. Actually, I have been asked to do it. But what the hell is wrong with this bloody error message! I have done absolutely everything - ok, well maybe not everything - that i could do and it still won't bloody go away! It's totally dampen my mood. And now i feel bad. Geez!

Here's the bloody error message i keep getting:

Windows - No Disk Exception Processing Message c0000013 Parameters 75b6bf9c 4 75b6bf9c 75b6bf9c

If anyone have any ideas whatsoever on how to fix this please, would you please let me know. It has to be something that hasn't been up in the forums you could easily access whenever you search for a fix for this error because I have already tried them all. So please if it's one of those cures that isn't easy to find please comment on this post.

Thanks a bunch!
Sazzy
xxx

P.S. Our family computer is running windows XP

Sunday, 14 June 2009

The YouTuber's Debut

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Just here to say that I finally finished writing 5 chapter of The YouTuber and that it's up in FP. :)

Weekend Scribbles 6

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Am I insane or what? I mean seriously, why am I doing my weekend scribbles at 1 am in the morning?
Well, i actually want to sleep.
I'm just here to tell you that I've finally, finally done 3 chapters of my newest baby: The YouTuber it's still not up on FP but it will be soon. Maybe after i've written 2 more chapters. In my opinion, i think it's quite good and i'm trying to write while i've still got the insipiration to. Inspirations run out quickly you know, so i want to make the most out of it. lol. But anyway, I might just be biased because I'm the one writing it. But I am enjoying every second of it. I won't say anything totally positive because I don't want to jinx it so look forward to reading it. Okish?
Lol.

Goodnight and God Bless!
Sazzy
xxx

Saturday, 13 June 2009

Creepy crawleys

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Last night or I don't know while I was asleep I dreamt of spiders for some reason. Here's the dream:

I was lying on my bed and I had no idea why but someone was on the upper bed, I think it was my dad. The bed wasn't in it's usual place near the big window, instead it was on the other side of the room near the smaller one. I opened my eyes and saw two big spiders on the box right next to my bed. I saw a flashlight next to me and turned it on to the spiders. They didn't move.

I tried then to go back to sleep but when i opened my eyes they were still there and they're crawling towards me. I didn't want to touch it (I admit, I'm scared of spiders. Happy?) but then in one way or another I did. I know the feeling of small spiders crawling on my hand but never the big ones so I thought why not try it? and in my dream I did. I slowly inched my hands to the black spider and it crawled on my hand. When I felt its feet I immeadiatly flicked it away. It hit the closet and died. The other one for some reason where stuck on a paper bag and can't seem to come out but its not dead.

The next thing I knew I was in the living room and someone asked me what's the flashlight for in my room. I told them there was a spider. Then, the image of the room with the flashlight pointing at the paper bag flashed in my mind and I woke up. Creepy eh?

Well, after that I looked at my dreams book and searched out spiders. Here's what it says:

For many, spiders are something of a nightmare, but in dreams their influence is far less terrifying. In Native American tradition they are seen as creatures of deep intelligence and prosperity. Dream-spiders often appear when the sleeper needs to make an important decision. They can also denote tremendous tenacity in pursuing an objective.

To tell you the truth, I'm as clueless as you are about that importand decision and that objective. But I guess I'll find out in due time eh? haha. Anyway that's that. Have a nice day everyone!

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Be kind, for everyone you meet is having a hard battle.
-Plato

Here and there.

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psh... daily mail went down the drain didn't it?
haha! i know, i'm sorry, i had my reasons ok? I was busy studying for mechanics which by the way, did not go well. It was bad! I think i'll get an E or something for it.
I shall prepare myself for the results day in August. I'm definitely sure that I'll get some form of scolding in one way or another. haha. I'm not really lookng forward to that.

So, I'm not the happiest person in the world and I'm not really the gloomiest either. I'm just a bit down today and I cringed when a certain someone said some unpleasant things - not to me though.

*sigh* I honestly, don't know what to do with myself anymore.

I need to cheer up and compose myself. Look at things at different light. Be more opstimistic and smile. That's what i need to do right now.

Signing off at 12.20 am

learning to be a zombie,
Sazzy
xxx

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

Wishing for concentration.

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I'm digging my own grave here. Maybe you're wondering why right? Um well, because I still haven't started revising and I have an extremely hard exam tomorrow.
I just don't know... I'm lost.
You know, I have this tingly feeling in my stomach. It's annoying. haha. And i'm even listening to a sweet song. I'm sure that if this is played in something like a wedding or something, i'll cry. It's really sweet and I really love the song.
Anyway, I'm off... wish me luck!

Sunday, 7 June 2009

Weekend Scribbles 5

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Hey everyone! How have you guys been?

Me? I'm pretty much not doing good. I think i need some rest and I'm in need of some solid sleep. Also, i'm not sure when my mechanics exam will be but I feel that I should be revising right now. haha.

Erm... i'm running out of things to say. My mind is not functioning as it should be so forgive me. I shall give you some story update with MA and it's a bit sad:
I'm contemplating of whether to stop writing MA altogether or to just leave it for now and re-write it again. It's sad because I don't really want to stop MA because it's my baby but I think I have to before I ruin Sarah and Alex's stories. I kind of went astray somewhere along the middle and the plot changed. I think I have to work on my timeline skills and the progressing of stories before I continue writing it. The plot also lacks depth and although I find writing it very exciting and I enjoy it, I feel that the story is dull and kind of boring. So in the end, I think I shall stop MA for a while. Don't worry though, this is not final. My descision may change and I might just continue, finish it and then re-write it.

With that, I shall bid you guys g'bye!

Friday, 5 June 2009

An unexpected story

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Alexis

I just had a row with my dad. It was something we usually do whenever he was drunk and it would usually end with me hurting at the end. I have forgotten when all this had started. I think, I was happy as a child. Well, that was until mom decided that she doesn't need us anymore and left with a guy half her age 2 years ago. Everything started to go downhill then. My dad spent every single time either in his company working his self to death or down the bar. And when he did, well, you can guess what happens...

So, I ran out of the house in the middle of the night into the pouring rain. I don't have anything with me. No phone, no shoes, no money, no, nothing... just my pj and a tee. You might say i'm insane, but i'm not. I'm a little messed up but who wouldn't? This family is just so messed up and the only way to escape my druken father was to run out of the house and hope that the maids and the house survive till i come back. You see, he's quite violent whenever he's drunk. It's like a tornado swept pass our house everytime. It's crazy!

I tried looking around my surroundings and I realized that i'm still in our front garden. I contemplated going back or walk out here through those gates and never come back again. I did neither. I just stood there as the rain poured heavily on my pathetic self. I was far enough from the house to not hear anything breaking or crashing. I was shivering heavily and my teeth are starting to chatter. I was so numb (emotionally and physically).

I wonder when this would end. When will my dad ever come back to who he was? When will my sweet father come back and hug me again, like he always do?

Never. I heard a voice say in my head.

hah! now I'm hearing voices?

I looked down and saw something interesting. A pair of scissors. I grabbed it with my shaking hands and looked back at the house and started walking back.

Now, don't be stupid. said the voice and i just smiled.

"It's not stupid." I muttered "I'm ending this."

I collapsed at the stairs leading up to the door. "Perfect!" I shouted.

This is beyond moronic Alexis! Drop the damned scissors now! She shouted back at me. I smirked at her and she started shouting endless profanities in my head.

"No one will ever know. They won't find it till morning and you know it. Besides, the rain will help." I said back, staring at the scissors at my hand.

I parted the scissors and held it with my right hand. The voice started to shout loudly in my head, her voice amplified by a thousand megaphones. I felt my head pounding hard and all i can see now is red.

STOP THIS NOW ALEXIS! DROP THE FREAKING SCISSORS! It said, repeatedly.

My smirk grew more knowing that the voice can't do anything but just shout. I felt the cold metal with my wrist and blood started gushing down my hands.

NOOOOOOOO!! AlEXIS ARE YOU INSANE?

Within seconds, i felt faint and blackness engulfing me. Oddly enough, just before my conciousness left me I heard the front door open and my dad shouting my name, his voice filled with worry and I smiled.
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Ok! What was that? haha. That literally just came to me as I was cutting a theme park wristband off of my wrist. Just to make it clear to you guys, I don't cut my wrist and i'm not an emo or goth or whatever. I don't know, it just... just came to me?

Have you ever experienced that? I was under this sort of 'i need to write this down' sensation. And, it just so happen that it came to me while i was trying to write Daily mail. haha. Told you i was leaning to the dark side XD

Whatever people, hope you enjoyed that weird unexpected story.
Goodnight!

Sazzy
xxx

P.S Sorry I forgot to do Daily Mail.

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

Bright sunny day (with a bit of stormy clouds approaching)

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Hey guys! how have you been these past two days? Me? 
I've been stressed, disappointed, had fun and lazed around and guess what? Well, I've got news for you~ (I practically sang that in the tune of MYMP's Someday. LOL)
Most of my exams are finally finished! One more to go and I'm done! 
I'm not really sure about my Biology and Chemistry exams now but hopefully, i've answered them all well and fingers crossed for the up and coming results day on August.
School, shool.... (that's a deliberate misspelling :P) I can't wait to finish all this and university, get a job and live without having to worry about exams and all the likes. But then i'll probably be worrying about work afterwards... haha!

So, i stopped worrying about Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Mathematics and Citizenship and now, i'm going to start to worry about Mechanics. After that, i'm free and then it's all fun again with the approaching rag week and the summer holidays! Oooh! can't wait!

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The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.
-Ben Stein