Tuesday, 10 August 2010

The musings of a sleep deprived.

I've been reading a story called Vampire Girl and it centred about this two lovers who kept killing each other every time they're reincarnated. No one actually know who first killed who even till the end. And so, their reincarnation kills each other for revenge every time they're reincarnated, although they actually love each other. It's an endless cycle that would never be stopped unless, the 'child' stopped playing with the ball or the 'child gets killed. The child being their creator and the ball being the two of them, the so-called 'failure'.

There was more to the story than just killing and their tragic fate and now it made me think. If, reincarnations are true and if, the present are atoning for their past selves' mistake, just like in the story, then what am I atoning for? What is my purpose for being here?

It would also be interesting to see what I am in my past life, was a human? an animal? a plant, maybe? Making all these questions and pondering about them can take me many days and I still wouldn't come up with any answers... but maybe, it's better that way? Not knowing about my past might be better than burdening myself with the weight of knowing my deeds and answering and pondering about these endless questions.

All this, however, are just fleeting thoughts that my mind conjured due to lack of sleep. So if you would, please, treat this as some random ramblings from a stranger you've passed on the streets.
"In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth."
- Mahatma Gandhi